qtgirl

Well, I’ve not been doing great with my diet/exercise for a while now. Last week I tried to get back on track, and did do many things right, but I had a lot of slip-ups!

I just don’t seem to be as motivated, as down to it as I was. Any thoughts!

Have any of you had a pit fall like this, and just had a tough time getting back on track. How did it happen, what did you do. Any advice, butt kicks, thoughts or motivational pep talks would be great.

Thanks,
Samantha

So, today I went shopping (again)! Summer clothes are truly my forte.

Anyways, I got the most adorable little black and pink dress in a size 12! I got the size 14 at lunch and then went back after work and tried on the 12. It fit perfectly (and the top bit is a little lose….bye bye boobies!!!)

But I was thrilled! And I tired a lot of other 12s on and they fit too!!

I’m on the way!!!! Yeah for me!!!

I’m in such a great mood. I went SHOPPING today, and man, I did not mess around. I was in the mall for 6 hours (I only sat down for about 20 mins of that, peeing a few times and having a quick snack!!!)

I LOVE shopping. I love new clothes. I got a BEAUTIFUL and very flattering dress for summer (Sears, $39.99…woo hoo). My hubby said it looks so good he asked if they had it in other colours so I could buy more! YES!

Then I got a white T-shirt at Jacob to wear with summer stuff. And then I bought 2 necklaces. One with Swarvoski crystals that I just LOVE. And, I also got some scrapbooking stuff. Of course, having been their 5 hours or so, I totally cased the joint so I have lots of other WANTS on the list. But I came home and got out my summer clothes to have a look through (you forget sometimes what you have).

AND, all kinds of stuff fits really good, way better than last year. ALSO, last year I bought this dress in a size 11 because I LOVED IT (still has the tag on) and it finally fits. It’s still a bit tight, but I can do it up!!! YES.

I just know that in a few weeks that dress will be fitting amazing!!!

Yeah for me. Doing a little happy dance.

AND, doing this has really helped me feel more inspired, so I’m going to do an extra long, tough workout tonight!!! So who knows, maybe a bit of spring/summer shopping might inspire some of you too!

Losing weight sucks! I think I’ve said that before. I’d rather do a Ph.d. EASY! I’d rather build a house from scratch (I’m sure I could figure it out). What’s annoying is it SEEMS so easy, but it is so incredibly hard. Sometimes it feels it’s like asking a penguin to fly.

Funny, I sound so discouraged, but I’m not even having that hard of a time.

I had my final weigh in tonight with a diet group I joined in December. When I started there I was 189. Now I’m 178.4 (with clothes on, evening, their scale).

5 months to lose 11 lbs. I know, I should be happy with that, but I have worked so hard. Sure, I’ve made mistakes (tons even). But I’ve also done a ton of amazing things. I just wish you could get a bit more payback from this dieting thing. It seems like you have to put 150% in EVERY DAY just to get somewhere. People tell you not to be a perfectionist, but it feels like you have to be sometimes.

I feel like I need to be superhuman to achieve this. And then some days, it makes sense and seems easy!

I know I’m just moaning, but honestly. It’s NOT easy. And anyone who has not had this struggle CANNOT understand.

As my friend says, it’s like telling an alcoholic to never get drunk again, but they have to do one shot of booze every day. We have to keep eating, we can’t go cold turkey. And we need to eat some MAGICAL amount. Not too little, not too much, PERFECT!!!!

Agggggrrrrrrhhhhh!!!!!!

Okay, done my rant. It’s so funny because I just encouraged about 50 people tonight. Why do I feel so discouraged myself!

Well, I am finally paying the price for falling off the wagon. I thought I had squeaked by without much of a gain, but I was wrong!

So, I was at 176.4 this morning….boo! I had once been 171. Disappointed, yes. But I did not break down surprisingly. I feel a bit discouraged because every pound is SO MUCH WORK. But, I just have to do those ones over. I will NOT give up on this.

Here we go again!

Today I went for a 1.5 hr walk with my hubby. There was this glorious ice cream shop. I said, “you want to share one?” Him “sure”. We go in, have a look. I say, “nah, let’s not”! YES….willpower wins!

I came home and had my protein shake instead.

Here’s to a good tomorrow.

Well, for awhile I didn’t think that I had fallen off the wagon, as I was clinging to it and being dragged along, but now I’m defiantly off!

Until today. After all the hectic weeks, I’m back. My partner and I were going to go away for a holiday, and have decided not to so that I can get back on track (well, we have a few other reasons) but this is a big part of it!!! Nuts, I know, trade in a 5 star hotel for a DIET!

But, here we go. This morning is a fresh start, today is a new day. Today will be “perfect” because I know it can be. I will eat right, I will workout and I will begin again! Day 1, again, and then on through this week. That’s why we’re not going on holiday, I don’t want any more excuses to not start TODAY!!!

So, I’m back buddies. I briefly considered joining another on-line diet community because I feel like such a black sheep! But here I am!!! I’m going to do great!

AND, another important decision. I turned down work (which is hard!). But some of you know how much college teaching was killing me. They offered me another NEW course, not in my field. It would have been so much work and stress, so I said NO! (There are rumours that is you turn down work you won’t be offered anymore but I don’t care!!!). So, I have no teaching (except for on-line) this summer! Yes!!! And that makes less excuses for not doing what I have to do!!!

Here’s to a great day one!!!!

Hum. As a teacher sometimes kids make excuses. I couldn’t do my paper because…

But once in a while, you want to believe them. Stuff happens, do they deserve a break?

The same is true for me right now and my weight loss journey.

The last few weeks have been insanely busy. Could I change that….no? Could I have really pushed myself and worked out still??? Maybe, probably, if I’d been willing to get even less sleep. Should I have? I don’t know.

So I guess what I’m wondering is when is it an EXCUSE? and when is it a true LIMIT? When do you kick yourself up the butt and when do you stop and give yourself a break (self-care). I have a tough time caring for myself, putting others first a lot and pushing myself like a workaholic. So, this is why this question comes.

I’m glad I have not given up. I’m disappointed that the last few weeks are time lost working toward my goal and were not perfect, but I’m not giving up. I guess in future when the s**t hits the fan again, I’ll need to reassess this.

Any thoughts or feedback would be great! I’m open to all comments (negative or positive)!

Well the past few weeks have been INSANE! I teach at a college and had so much work and marking to do, and tests to write and blah, blah, blah. Work, work, work. I would work on the way to work (marking on the subway). It was nuts.

So, to a degree my healthy lifestyle went out the window. Not 100%, but enough. Let’s say..40%.

I only got one REAL workout in (weight training) and a few one hour walks here and there.

I ate somewhat well, but had lots of goof ups (emotional eating at times…chocolate hey) or just not being prepared and eating lunch out.

And, when I feel down or overwhelmed, a dinner out makes me feel good…like I’m doing something!

So, that is my two weeks. Could I have handled it better (sure, but I’m not perfect yet). Could I have done worse? Sure, but I did a lot of good things (like bringing cut up veggies to work). And that one workout is something!

So, my world is finally slowing down. It’s spinning a bit, but a lot less than it was. THANK GOD!

And now I’m going to get back on track.

So to all my buddies. Sorry I’ve not been around, I did miss you all, and I missed being here. But I just had literally NO TIME to spare. (sleeping and showering became luxuries).

So Here’s to life back on track!!!!

Opps, I posted this twice and it won’t let me erase it. Sorry!

Man, what a game this weight loss thing can be. It feels like you really need to be on your toes. Why isn’t dieting and weight loss an Olympic sport, it seems to require as much dedication and training (for me it feels like more). Coke’s not exactly sponsoring me in this journey so I can just focus and train all day. So I have to work too.

I’m feeling good and re-focused. Its only been two days, but it is nice to feel “in control” again. I just realized that for that past few weeks I was putting about 80-85% in. That seems good. Maybe of my students would like a mark like that. But, back to my Olympics metaphor, that just ain’t enough to get me the gold. (oooh how fun to use bad grammar).

So, for the past 2 days I’ve been giving 100%. It feels good to do well, to achieve each day. The sad part, realistically I’m not sure how long I can pull this off. But I’m just going to keep pushing and worry about that when it happens.

I’m doing better. I’m eating well, I’m working out and I’m on the road. Here comes my gold medal! And I have a sneaky suspicion. As good as it will probably feel to win the gold in the Olympics. I’m guessing getting to, and staying at a good and healthy weight for me….will feel better!!! :)